Monday, July 25, 2011

{Becoming Me}

I am beginning a new journey.  It is a journey of becoming.  Becoming me.
I know I've been me for 40 years but it has been a struggle.
I've never liked me.  I was actually more in the hate department.
I have improved over the last few years.  I no longer hate myself but I haven't fallen in love with me either . . . yet.

I've always struggled with self-esteem - a serious lack of it.
It may seem surprising but it is oh, so true.
My poor Sir Thomas.  He hasn't known what to do with me. 

Today begins a new day!  Today, I begin to choose who I will be and I will love the person I choose to be.  That even sounds Dr. Seuss-ish!  I'm off to a great start!

My blog will soon have a new look.  (Thank you, Cari) And I will continue to share my journey down the path to happily ever after . . .  Happiness is not my destination.  Happiness is the journey.  My family has always made me happy!  Now, I will learn to be happy being me.

* I will no longer stare at my thighs every time I walk past a mirror.
* I will no longer cringe at the sound of my voice or my laugh.
* I will say "Thank You!" when Sir Thomas tells me I'm beautiful.  I think I'll even give him a kiss.
   (I'll be working on not discounting his compliments in my head!)
* I'm going to learn to stop comparing myself to the perfect people I know and start liking me.

I don't know exactly what this journey will look like.  I just know it's time that I begin.  Welcome self to a new world! 
I think I'll wear red lipstick tomorrow with my high heels.