I am beginning a new journey. It is a journey of becoming. Becoming me.
I know I've been me for 40 years but it has been a struggle.
I've never liked me. I was actually more in the hate department.
I have improved over the last few years. I no longer hate myself but I haven't fallen in love with me either . . . yet.
I've always struggled with self-esteem - a serious lack of it.
It may seem surprising but it is oh, so true.
My poor Sir Thomas. He hasn't known what to do with me.
Today begins a new day! Today, I begin to choose who I will be and I will love the person I choose to be. That even sounds Dr. Seuss-ish! I'm off to a great start!
My blog will soon have a new look. (Thank you, Cari) And I will continue to share my journey down the path to happily ever after . . . Happiness is not my destination. Happiness is the journey. My family has always made me happy! Now, I will learn to be happy being me.
* I will no longer stare at my thighs every time I walk past a mirror.
* I will no longer cringe at the sound of my voice or my laugh.
* I will say "Thank You!" when Sir Thomas tells me I'm beautiful. I think I'll even give him a kiss.
(I'll be working on not discounting his compliments in my head!)
* I'm going to learn to stop comparing myself to the perfect people I know and start liking me.
I don't know exactly what this journey will look like. I just know it's time that I begin. Welcome self to a new world!
I think I'll wear red lipstick tomorrow with my high heels.